Stopped the 10DC cause I can’t follow all of the rules with my work schedule. Back to basic calorie counting.

Last night I had a corn dog, candy apple & a full meal at home. Luckily, I didn’t binge. However, I made the stupidest move today and weighed myself. I know that after eating salt loaded foods, you retain water, which leads to the number on the scale being higher. When I saw the number this morning, I felt so hopeless. Hopeless that I will never reach my goals and that I don’t have enough strength to go through with this. But I know I do.

I remember counting down the days till my vacation, 6 months ago. If I had been smart and lost weight  SLOWLY I would have gotten there by now, but alas, I didn’t do it slowly. Instead, I tried eating 1200 calories a day and burning off around 400 each day through exercise, never eating them back. Stupid choice.

After this month, I will go on 1 pound lost per week and 1.5 pounds lost per week, no more of this 2 pound crap. 800 calories a day really isn’t enough. As for now, I’m sticking with the 10 day challenge because I need a kick to get rid of the cravings and really detoxify my body.

So what if in a month, even two months, I still have a lot of improvement to do? That’s why people say patience is key to success. You have to put in effort everyday to see results, which is what I’ll do. Sure, there isn’t enough time to look like my goal by the time I leave for vacation, but I would much rather look the tiniest bit better than I do now, than gain because I gave up.

Keep on climbing, even if you cannot see the top.

Oh my god, working seriously gets in the way of working out/following rules. I got up at 7am this morning so I could go to the gym, and by the time I got home (I bike to & from the gym) I had to pack everything and eat in my car because I had no time to do anything, not even get ready. Tomorrow is going to be frantic too, I’m going to be sleep deprived!

As for exercise, I missed 2 videos today so I will be doing those tomorrow. I’m still alive, I just need my tea :P Timing when to eat will also be a hassle, seeing as I don’t really choose when I get my breaks.

Stress is temporary, success is a lifetime.

Starting over, yet AGAIN, because I feel like my past personal posts & efforts have been half-assed. I was mostly distracted and didn’t really explain or put heart into those posts, so I thought it would be good to restart.

Anyways, yesterday I said I couldn’t go through with the 10 day challenge. I’ve changed my mind. It’s not deprivation or starvation; it’s discipline. Something I clearly lack. If I see weakness in others, I am quick to pick it out, but for me, why is it not the same? That’s absolute stupidity. I cannot STAND laziness; therefore, I will not allow it to exist within myself. July will be the month I build solid discipline.

Set your mind straight. Build your priorities on concrete. Stick to them, no matter how difficult it gets. That’s how you reach your goals. For me; giving in isn’t hard to prevent, I just have to stop letting myself think about what I’m ‘missing out on’ cause I’m not missing out on anything. When stress builds up, I will sit down, have a cup of tea & let myself get lost in a book.

I’m going to be working lots for the next 10 days, so I know that exercise will be hard to fit in, but I will do it. Whether it’s getting up at 6 am or working out after work, I will figure it out. On Fridays, I will make up for any exercise I missed & if I didn’t miss anything, it’s a break day. I also can’t follow one of the rules because of my work schedule; but that’s alright, it isn’t a major rule.

Get the balls to own up to your actions. Realize that you haven’t made any progress because your lazy ass decided it wouldn’t put in the effort. Change the way you think; change your values. You’ve been wanting this for years now, why haven’t you gotten there?

In the end, you are the person who decides what you become.